Rambling


It may come as a surprise to some, but I have to admit I’m a bit of a perfectionist. That’s not to say anything I do is perfect, or even comes reasonably close. I’m lazy and not very good at much of anything so I often make compromises. Especially with the sort of Job I have which is all about compromises, and which I am also not very good at. I’m not talking about my art, which I have given up on, but my day job that someone actually pays me to do. It kills me inside every time I make these compromises. Every time I fail to reach perfection. It drives me to the brink of suicide, which is unfortunately a pretty short drive. It would be much healthier for me to just not give a shit but I find it impossible to develop this sort of Laissez faire attitude.
But really it’s the same thing with everything I do. My aforementioned art, my woodworking, my relationships. Every flaw screams at me any time I look at them. Every wonky saw mark, every uninspired and poorly executed drawing, every misspoken word or words never said.
They haunt me.
So. I’m sorry if you were hoping so see more art when you came here. (Big assumption I know). I can’t say I don’t miss it. I feel like a hollow shell when I am not creating something. Nothing gives me greater pleasure than bringing something of value into the world with my own hands. I’m taking the cowards way out I know.
I just can’t take it anymore.

Just had to get that out. I feel like posting here is safer than writing it on paper. Judging by my stats only Russian spammers will ever see this :P
All my stuff is still up on flickr though, so please have a look with your human eyes. Let me know if you enjoyed it. It makes me feel good.

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My good friend Rich passed on last night, taken far too soon. This is my humble tribute to a kind, hardworking & intelligent man. He was a true friend and a loving father.

The world is a poorer place without him.
He will be dearly missed.

Rich Jones

Sorry for my substantial reduction in posts these past couple years. I have been going through a little bit of a thing and not really doing much art. That has to change of course, but it’s difficult.
Still, I have 2 new illustrations and some pinhole photography to share.
I love pinhole photography, and not because I am a hipster but I just love the tone and the colours. Nothing else can quite capture that.
Here are some of the pinhole shots. You can get larger images on my flickr.

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Some older stuff…
Pictured with me is my youngest daughter. I don’t think I have really told anyone and don’t expect anyone to understand but she is the reason I am here talking to you now for better or worse.

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My Daughter made mail boxes for everyone for some reason.

She didn’t make one for herself though, so I made one for her. (edit://I guess she did, but it was in her room, ah well.)

Here is the letter I put in her mailbox.

I love this kid to pieces.

Happy Holidays!
Thank-you to everyone who sent me warm wishes.

If for whatever reason some pages or images do not load on my site please come back again later. For some reason my server is being a bit goofy. Everything is there, there are no broken links that I am aware of, it’s just that my server gets a bit flooded with the 4 visits a day I get and can’t handle the load I guess :)
It’s like when you are running the microwave, the toaster oven and then you plug in the kettle and the power goes out in your kitchen. In this analogy you are the kettle :)
Seriously though, it does goof up from time to time so please come back if this happens to you and feel free to send me an email on the contact page.

It’s been 16 years now since I married my beautiful wife. 18 years we have been together.
Not a day goes by I do not appreciate what I have in her.

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A moving documentary. Very well made.


Tags: Suicide, Depression, Japan

For some strange reason my wife is trying to keep me alive longer. She has been making me go for walks at night. I feel like I am officially an old man now.
It is nice though. Quite relaxing really, especially if the kids stay home :)
Along the way we will check out what people have done with their houses and gardens, and see if we can get ideas.
Honestly though looking at all the homes along our walk I can’t say there are very many I would trade for if I could even find one. I do like my house.
Here is a picture of one of the locals we met along the way. This very friendly cat will come running up to us looking for a pat.

We found a very friendly cat on today's walk.

I’m feeling very lucky to live in such a nice neighborhood and to have such a wonderful wife.
TAGS: Michiko Clare, Dwayne Clare, みち子 クレア, 美智子、nezu7chu, 妻/span>

Had a great day in Vancouver watching the LGBT parade with my ladies.
I managed to get fried even though we had a beautiful shady spot.
I have all the pictures up on my flickr page, please click here to see them.

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私の夫ドゥエインと子供たちと一緒にバンクーバープライドパレードを見て
*LGBT(レズビアン・ゲイ・バイセクシュアル、トランスジェンダー)*バンクーバープライドパレード2012の写真*
Michiko Clare and Dwayne Clare at the vancouver lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender pride parade in Vancouver. みちこクレアとドウェインクレア。 バンクーバーのLGBT「レズビアン/ゲイ/バイ・セクシャル/トランスジェンダー」パレードである。

So after 20 years of working in a door factory, ten of them working on the trimmer huffing around 80-100lb doors, my body is a mess. Even after having a desk job for the last couple years I am in constant pain. I know this is caused by my lack of stretching and exercise, and no real physical damage, so after visiting physiotherapists and chiropractors will little effect I asked my friend Chiho to help me out. Chiho is a personal trainer, and I figured she could help me with some core strengthening. I am a lazy ass and would not exercise at all without her. Well let me tell you, aside from the exercise bits, the biggest help has been her stretching regime. Chiho will bend and twist me like a Flex Armstrong doll, helping me do stretches and massaging me in a way I could never achieve myself, and it is working fantastically. She has done more for me than any physiotherapist has ever done.
This has nothing to do with anything, but I just wanted to say thank-you to Chiho for all her hard work. If you live in Chilliwack and need a little help getting back in shape, or ending the constant pain of over used and under exercised muscles, I highly recommend Chihoko. She is worth every penny.

When only your friends tell you your art is good it’s much like only your mother telling you you are handsome. What it means, essentially, is that your mother loves you very much…and you are ugly.

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I would like to take the time to say thank-you to a good friend of mine Kikuko Roueche.
Kikuko has been a long time friend and she always been there for us.
Sadly, Kikuko moved away from Chilliwack, and is now living it large in the big city, far away. :(
Kikuko is living in Burnaby / Vancouver now and she is selling real estate to support herself and her two boys, so if you are looking to buy a house give her a shout.
You couldn’t have a nicer person representing you, and that’s worth it’s weight in gold.

I painted a picture of Kikuko and her awesome little guy as my entirely inadequate way of saying thank-you. Here it is.

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Thank-you for everything Kikuko.

Thank-you Steve.
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I got a package the other day, or two to be exact. One box full of t-shirts and a couple books which a good friend of mine wrote.

The books are from Daniel Davis, (the artist, not the actor), it was a pretty exciting mail day all told.
Klawberry and Caught Creatures are wonderful books filled to the brim with lush and creative art and a nice simple enjoyable story. Just perfect for a small child’s bedtime story or for an older kid who is just learning how to read. I would strongly recommend either one of these books.